My name is Mike, I have spent my life experiencing that trap and I believe I know the way out, and I believe I can show you the way out, as well.

One of the most significant events of my childhood took place when I was around 6 years-old at the dinner table on an ordinary evening. My father was telling a story I don’t remember, because the food I was eating was starting to make me feel ill. My focus had obviously turned inward, and I thought I was going to vomit. I got up from the dinner table and went to the bathroom. When I returned to the dinner table and said the food made me sick, my father interrupted me and said that I was lying, and that I was not actually sickened by the food but, the story he was telling.

What made that event special was not that it had never happened before but, that day was the day my brain had finally developed enough to comprehend what was happening. For the first time in my life I understood that he couldn’t possibly know what is going on inside me. So, I pushed back and said he was wrong. He just pushed back harder and meaner. But I knew I was right even if I couldn’t communicate it well, so I tried again, and that’s when my mother and brother proceeded to join him in telling me I am wrong. At that moment, a tightness entered my chest that has never fully left.

From that day on I knew my family didn’t really love me, at least not how they loved others. That revelation (which wasn’t as clear as I’m making it sound, I was only 6) added some clarity to the feeling of unfairness I had been experiencing the prior six years of life and unleashed a fear and pain that took hold of me and has controlled most of my life to this day…46 years later.

The scapegoated child experience embodies all the dynamics of deception that are at the heart of all the evils in this world.

Being controlled an manipulated since birth, I’ve had to develop tools and methods to discover the truth. I believe I have lived in a bizarre sweet spot of trauma; any more trauma and I would’ve been lost, never daring to investigate the whys. Any less, and I could have denied my trauma existed and would have felt no need to investigate.

I’ve spent my life finding and focusing on the facts and words that don’t fit the stories being told. I notice breaks in logic, lies, and deceptive behaviors in general. Using what I find while investigating those breaks in logic, to peek behind the curtain and see what is really going on. Because in a world of lies, the truth is revealed in the inconsistencies in a story and the consistency of those inconsistencies.

When I am on my game, I am hard to deceive and detect lies and inconsistencies with ease (both in others and myself.) I can understand and decipher most situations, as long as, I am not a part of that situation. I haven’t been a part of any situation in years, and from this unique vantage point, I have been connecting dots of data and constructing a narrative that explains the whys of my life. And, it turns out my life is relatively average and my whys are most whys.

This narrative I’ve been constructing is founded on being open to all ideas for possible solutions and testing everything. Now over 50, having spent my life dwelling on and testing possibilities; I have gained the ability to see narratives and the twisting of facts and logic to serve narratives, and that, has narrowed what I will accept as true and revealed a need to share.

I believe our newest words, added to our language by modern science and technology, can now be used to understand and describe our most ancient of stories. Most just can’t see it yet, because they are still under the programming of the previous generation’s interpretations.

If you have been scapegoated, especially since childhood, you have already experienced one side of the spectrum; the side of evil. You’ve experienced being humiliated and invalidated. You’ve experienced someone using you as a prop in the theater of their life and their wrath when you claim to be more than who pretend you are.  The simple system of deception and delusion they create in their minds is the very blueprint of the self-centered philosophy of all evil.

And, if that is true: after thousands of generations of humans, shouldn’t something we have access to address how all this works and show us how we are supposed to counteract the negative effects on our lives?

I believe we do have such a thing and it is the Holy Bible. Now, please hold on if you have had bad experiences with people using the Bible against you or to gaslight you, I promise this will be different. I promise I will show you it has the answers to the questions you’ve been asking all along… including a way to be seen, validated, and restored with authentic truth based love. The system designed to do that is the Church, and yet I have never found a gathering of people that truly behaves in the manner of the Church described in the New Testament.

Shouldn’t you feel and experience the power of love and fellowship when you are in a Christian Church?

Shouldn’t Christianity wipe away depression and loneliness and replace it with joy and fellowship?

Isn’t there supposed to be something much more fulfilling?

Can’t you do more than just have blind faith?

Wouldn’t science be able to be incorporated in, as well as reinforce all true narratives?

The answer to all those questions is, YES!

Please join me as I share those answers… and many more, here and on Locals, Rumble, YouTube, and most places podcasts are found.

As I implied earlier, I discovered what I have through my lens being broken in just such a manner it revealed the proper image of this broken world. I am far from perfect, and God speaks to me exclusively through His Word and His Word’s work in myself and others. Help me continue and perpetuate that dynamic communication with us all.

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